“When am I going to finally figure things out?” Isn’t one of the questions we ask the most, “When am I going to get this right?”
Sometimes I think I question my life too often. But I don’t know how to live life without questioning it. I look at where I am, and all around me I see blessings- every day I feel grateful in some way- but when I look back, I see a long, twisted trail of mistakes…a trail littered with fragments of what feels like several lives I’ve lived by now. And in a lot of ways, I fear that my mistakes haven’t prepared me for doing this any better…they haven’t quite taught me where I’m meant to go, just largely where I’m not. And what’s worse, they’ve made me question my instincts; my mistakes have made me question my ability to create the life I want to lead.
Sometimes I get tired of trying to figure it all out myself, even though I know that’s the only way it’ll work out in the long run. But honestly, we all grow weary at times. Sometimes I just want someone to tell me that it’s going to be ok, and carry me for a while. I want someone to let me know that no matter what, I’m going to be all right. Sometimes I want someone to just……..save me.
With that, I’ll leave you with the words of Jon McLaughlin.
Come on, come on
You have got to move on
This is not the you I know
This isn’t real
It’s just all you can feel
And that’s the way that feelings go
And whether or not it’s right or wrong you’ll do what you will do
When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you’re braving
Don’t tell yourself you can’t lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes
Say what you will but the time that we fill
While we’re on the earth
Should not be alone
We were meant to be known
You make me what I’m worth
But I can’t keep you from yourself, you’ll do what you will do
I don’t know why it has to be this way and
I don’t know the cure
But please believe someone else has felt this before
When the cloud in the sky starts to pour
And your life is just a storm you’re braving
Don’t tell yourself you can’t lean on someone else
Cause we all need saving sometimes
